3 Years Old

I don't know where to start. I found myself crying today after I dropped you off at school, something I very rarely ever do. It was because I realised that my little girl is growing up. You're three today. Three! Three whole years have passed, it feels like a lifetime, it feels like there was never a time you weren't in my life, yet it feels like yesterday that I held you in my arms for the first time. It has gone so quick.

I keep thinking to myself that I wish I could just visit the time when you were a baby, just once, to hold onto that tiny little soul that came into my world, because that tiny little soul has become a little person. And I'm afraid that it will be 20 years from now and I won't know where the time went.

It's an odd thing, trying to cherish and savour time. When you're a kid, time is consumed with play and exploration, and you go to bed eagerly awaiting another day. As a teenager, all you want to do is grow up. And when you become a parent, all you want is for it all to slow down.

Anna, you are so full of life; you seek and consume every form of energy that passes your way. It's a wonderful way to be. You remind me of me, and I know that as a child, life was beautiful. I want you to always seek happiness in your pursuit in life. I adore that your predisposition is happiness, and you always remind me that some things in life are not worth the fuss and that I should just smile and laugh, because it works seamlessly for you.

When I think about 'kids' in general, all of those wonderful things that keep us parents 'young', and you are so much more than that. I never knew just how rewarding it would be, not just to have a child, but a child like you. I am in awe of the things you say and do, your peace and harmony with life and with the earth, the constant smile across your face, the reality checks your offer me with your innocent honesty and scary comprehension of adult matters your seem to simplify, and your inspirational adaptability - I am so proud of you.

I see the world at your feet, Anna. You are going to move mountains, walk on water, change the world. You have a profound charisma that is necessary for such monumentous things. I am so excited for you; you have this robust energy that will steer you through an abundant and fulfilled life. I promise to guide you through this life safely, but I will help you open every door and turn every key to unlock every opportunity you seek. And I'll do my best to remind you to slow down and enjoy the ride.

Wide open spaces, baby.