Time For Change

It has been too long. And I am highly disappointed with myself for letting this one go. Of all the things that I should be putting my efforts into, this has got to be a top priority; and lately it hasn't. As a matter of fact, 'lately' is an understatement.

Life has changed. A lot. Especially since my last post. And given all the changes we've faced lately, it's brought to light some things in my life that I need to give the flick. Facebook. I know it sounds stupid, but I use Facebook everyday. And it's disrupting life on so many levels. I have honestly kept a solid running record of developments and milestones, I guess I had used Facebook as a forum for it. But it's got to go.

From now on, I'm putting my energy into keeping this blog going. For it is a running record of the life of my, now, two children.

Since my last blog (over a year ago) Anna has grown into this stunning, vibrant and outgoing little girl. She is truly amazing and I adore her more and more every day. We've moved a fair bit - Mount Waverley, Camberwell, Blackburn, and we're on the verge of moving once again soon. Adam and I have separated. And I have welcomed a new baby into our little family. Amelie Anne.

Amelie is now 8 months old. Anna is turning three in about a months time. And they are truly kindred spirits. I envy Anna at her ability to put a smile on Amelie's face. She just lights up like nothing else.

Life is full on. It gets tough. But my girls have a profound ability to bring the life back into me when I hit rock bottom.

I am so sorry to my girls, I am sorry I could not give you that nuclear family that others around you might have, but I think I will be a better mum because of it. I promise I will always make up for it, by being the best mum I could ever be, by always being there to catch you when you may fall, and to give you more love than any two parents could combined. I promise you that. You will never miss out.

I feel like the past year or so has been very trying, and that is why I've just neglected this blog. The final months of my relationship with Adam were particularly tough, and when Amelie was three months old, I became a single mum. So I've had my hands full. It's not a justification, but it's the reason.

So, going forward - I will do my best to 'catch up' on the past year, which may be difficult between being 'mum', 'uni student' and 'domestic cleaner on an epic scale', but I will get it done.

Ashleigh, Anna and Millie - not your average family, but it's beautiful, and it's ours.